TW, catering.

catering, Taaruf week semester 2 2012/2013.
May it be part of the sweet bar of my chocolate!

sakit.

Benarkah kau wujud dalam masa depanku?
Aku menanti sinar itu.
Aku kan terus menunggu. samdai detik waktu. bertemu.

Biarlah. ia luka parah berdarah.
biarlah ia sakit bernanah.
biarlah ia hancur merekah.
biarkan ia begitu
biar ia tahu.
hanya sepi dan waktu..
    yang menyembuhkan.

again. again.

Jika tidak percaya pada ALLAH, siapa lagi yang perlu dipercaya?

sudahlah, kesat airmata.

Rasa sedih sering kali mengajarkan lebih banyak hal dibandingkan rasa senang. Sering kali air mata lebih mampu menyembuhkan luka, dibandingkan tawa kosong tanpa makna, Sering kali musibah mendekatkan diri kita kepadaNya, dibandingkan nikmat yang terkufur. . .

dear my lovely self. sabar.

He gives what you need, what you want.

He takes away everything that will harm you. He cares about you.

Dia ambil semua di sisi supaya ada hanya saya dan Dia.
Ketika Allah rindu pada hambanya, Allah akan mengirimkan sebuah hadiah istimewa melalui malaikat Jibril yang isinya adalah ujian…

Nabi saw. bersabda, Allah berfirman, "Pergilah pada hambaKu lalu timpakanlah ujian padanya kerana Aku ingin mendengar rintihannya." (HR Thabrani)

sabarlah, bertahan buat kesekian kalinya.

wahai badan, maaf sebab tidak menjagamu sebaiknya. sering memaksamu melebihi limit yang sepatutnya. terima kasih kerana masih mampu berdiri buat kesekian kalinya.

inshaa Allah. sakit itu penghapus dosa.

Brain.

in life, i notice that there are two types of learner;

-1st is very hardworking, but not too intelligent.
-2nd is given a good brain, but he not too hardworking.

At the time when the 1st one laying around, chitchatting, facebooking, gosipping again and again and again. the 2nd was struggle hardly.

both end up having the same result. SAME. SIMILAR. biasa.

dan bahaimana untuk kita jadikan kita yang LUARBIASA.
the special one.

so, the answer is= don't be among the both categories.

me?

i also did not know which category i belonged to. people say that i am intelligent naturally, Allah give me a brilliant brain.
and me, just smiling and say in the deepest of my heart;

"they never see how crazy i'm studying"

again, i never know which group i belonged to.
++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
to be one of the 1st group, i struggle hardly. to be intelligent specifically
Allah has created brain as the most amazing thing
brain that differentiate we and another

the aql, one of things that MUST be preserved
the 4th Maqasid As-shariah. the 4th of al-dururiyyah al-khomsiah.

we can preserve it through 2 approaches;
1. affirmative measures
2. protective measures

we can train our brain
we can make it clever, its food is Education and pursuit of knowledge. the i'lm
we can maintain our brain, among other ways are;
-eat honey consistently
-eat habbatus sauda consistently
-do not sleep on evening
-cover head in toilet
-do not eat haram/dirtyfood
-always cut ur fingernails, because it made ur food dirty
- reading surah al-luqman consistently
-dua
-pray
-pray
-and pray
-etc etc etc etc etc and etc

yes, too many rule and regulation
too many do and don't to observe

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
to be in 2nd group, I MUST be hardworking.
it is a habit, habit can be inculcated by doing it consistently.

1. stay away from distraction
2.patient

yes, for me, stay in my comfortable room is one of the distraction, the FB, the non-stop drama, the favorite thriller movie, the bed and all the bears. they are all distraction that stop me from study.
so, what i did that i find the best place to study.
wake up in the morning and go anywhere that help me stay focus.
and this semester, the best place i discovered was the students lounge.

even full with students, foreigner that speak loudly, sometime laugh loudly and turn on the speaker loudly. but, my mood to study is there. yes. because other students went there to study.

Undeniable. we are human, we tend to be good depend on our mood.
indeed, it is the fact.

and another interesting fact is, "Allah is the Controller, the Sustainer, the Giver.
ask him for the strength that we seek, and in-shaa-Allah, He will grant us.

bye. semester 1 year 3

Alhamdulillah.

Byebye semester 1 year 3, byebye books, byebye scale ruler, calculator, PAM2006, PWD203A and all the tough drawings. Byebye all the pains and tear. See you next time. May He eases our journey! :)

yup. sem 1 year three... another place to discovered.

in average of ten hours a days for more than 2 weeks, staying at study room mahallah, tough me a lots.
--> no matter what courses you're majoring, what kuliyyah you're belonged to, the final examination is almost the same.


yeah, EXAMINATION is not just testing our ability on understanding the subject matter, it is about the skills of answering the question paper, in overall aspects.


not only the studying skill, the critical thinking skills, the memorizing skill, but includes the skill how students concluded the overall subject in 1 idea, how students assess the past year questions, how students analyze the questions patterns as well as the lecturers behavior on giving question and marking the questions paper..

yes, it is all about.

the truth and the real fact is;

if you study just for the sake of passing the examination, or to score the dean's list. Once you succeed, you got what you want. But if you fail, you got nothing. NOTHING at all. ZERO. and you will start thinking that life is not fair.


but if you study to achieve His blessing, the blesses and barokah from the above authority. To seek for knowledge that will bring you closer to Him. and if you fail, you still can be relief because you have gotten the 'ilm, the blessing, the love from the LOVE GIVER. you will think that He has reserved something better for you. He has planned for your future. He knew what he is doing and He has choosen you to walk on that path. the path that he has planned thoroughly for you...........and once (if) you succeed, you have EVERYTHING!


do not ever sad if He not answer your call. it is the time where He is planning something beautiful.
yes..

dear my dears.

Heart,
one here and one there,
lets hold together, stay stronger, rise wiser, be smarter
don't let the evil win,
you are better!

“Ketahuilah di dalam jasad itu ada segumpal daging,
apabila dia baik maka baiklah seluruh jasad,
dan apabila dia buruk maka buruklah seluruh jasad.

Ketahuilah bahawa itu adalah hati.”

Hadith riwayat Bukhari dan Muslim, dari Nu’man bin Basyir.

hati. semoga baik-baik hendaknya.

HEART, i know it hurt. please. be patient.

another moment, another way, in a same life.
Another rough day.
Allah, please.
Accept my call.

Ya Allah, terlalu banyak hamba-Mu ini meminta,
sedangkan dosanya membukit, amalnya sekadar sahaja.
Tuhan, harap Kau tak pernah jemu menerima panggilanku.
kerana takkan ada sesiapa yang layak menyahutnya melainkan-Mu.
Tuhan, andai aku alpa pada rahmat-Mu yang menggunung,
tegurlah agar aku tidak terus pesong.
Tuhan, andai aku erlalu taksub pada harta dunia,
bantulah, agar aku membawa secukupnya bekalan ke sana.
Tuhan, andai diri ini lemah untuk melangkah.
pimpinlah, agar aku terus gagah. megah.

Tuhan, sekelian lagi untuk detik pahit ini,
jangan biarkan aku terkapai sendiri,
jangan kau hanyutkan aku dengan nikma duniawi,
jangan kau kaburkan laluanku dengan permainan ilusi ini.

Tuhan, bawalah aku menemui cinta hakiki-Mu,
agar aku terus berusaha mengejar sejuta ilmu.
agar aku bisa mendaulatkan agama-Mu,
agar aku terus tabah menjulang indahnya seruan-Mu.

Tuhan, aku masih disini,
menanti cinta hakiki-Mu,
aku yakin pada janji-janji-Mu,
Inshaa-Allah, sehingga ke hembusan terakhir,

izinkan aku berjuang mengjulang agama-Mu ke destinasi tertinggi.

"“Sesungguhnya Allah tidak akan mengubah nasib suatu kaum kecuali kaum itu sendiri yang mengubah apa apa yang pada diri mereka ” (Surah Ar-Rad:11)

#hanya Engkau yang berhak mentakdirkan segalanya. Kun Fayakun.

nescaffe

a cup of hot nescafe gives me a hope for another moments. thanks!
civil engineering construction, please... be nice.

Our times.

Friends, our dreams are similar. We are here in the same journey to be walked together. we have the same courage, we polish the same hopes, we strive for the same star, we create the same memories, we share the same laughs and tears.

But it always in mind, our last and our destiny might be different. I might choose other way, and you might choose yours. We might split apart, go further where the tomorrow will bring us. In fact, we never know what the future holds. but we know who hold it. We plan for the best, but He also plans and He is the best Planner.

One day, we will change, people do change. But remember that i will never forget our friendship. Our promise in heart, even it never been spoken out.

kawan, demi Tuhan yang menciptakan langit dan bumi; mengenali kalian merupakan satu Rahmat!
Thanks a lot for all these days!

iFtar 1432 H

AHLAN WASAHLAN
Ya Ramadhan Qareem!
wahai bulan indah yang tak jemu datang membawa sejuta keberkatan,
wahai bulan mulia yang sabar menanti waktu membawa khabar kegembiraan,
aku merinduimu!

pada detik sama waktu yang berbeda,
aku masih ingat saat ku belajar menerimamu,
saat aku dilatih menahan getir itu,
betapa hati ini sarat pada dugaan yang kau bawa,
betapa badan ini gelisah pada jiwa yang meronta.

ingatkah kau pada anak kecil yang menunggu terawih pertama?
cantik dalam bersih pakaian putih tanpa warna,
berdiri rokok sujud dalam lautan manusia berpakaian sama,
mengharap pada berkat seperti dilahirkan semula.
mengenang dosa melawan cakap abah mama,
betapa naif si kecil tergoda,
pada kata yang entah tidak betulnya,
hanya pada-Nya yang menilai segala,

ingatkah lagi,
betapa gembira senyum gembira yang terlakar,
ketika bersama beramai menikmati moreh di akhir terawih,
berlari tertawa riang bersama rakan sebaya,
dapat bertemu selain di sekolah.

saat siang mentari belum mengeluarkan garang,
mata terpisat disedari laungan garang suara abah,
mencium aroma enak masakan mama,
memancing selera kami ramai beradik,
betapa seronok kenangan makan setalam,
masing-masing berebut ruang,
walau yang kerak menjadi lazat.
walau yang hangit menjadi sedap,
walau yang kelat menjadi enak.

tatkala azan yang dinanti berkumandang,
senyuman terlakar riang,
penat jerih turut hilang,
betapa nikmatnya aturang Dia Yang Maha Penyayang.


dan buat sekalian kalinya.
nikmat itu tetap sama.
seperti satu waktu dulu.

Thanks GOD.

Seringkali ku harap bintang bergemelapan di malam hari, tapi Kau beri gelita tak bertepi,
Seringkali ku minta bunga yang cantik berwarna warni, tetapi Kau berikan kaktus yang tajam berduri,
Seringkali ku impikan kawan yang ceria menjadi peneman, tapi Kau berikan ulat bulu yang hodoh menggelikan,
Seringkali ku harap langit cerah menghiasi maya, tapi Kau beri guruh kilat berdentum bergema.
Seringkali ku minta agar lorong hidup yang ku lalui saban hari ini indah untuk ditelusuri, namun Kau letakkan duri-duri dugaan di sepanjang perjalanan.

sehingga,
aku kalah menangis.
aku rebah termengah.
aku sedih merintih.
aku merayu mencari kudrat
aku meraba mencari tempat berpaut
dan sebenarnya,
betapa aku sedar aku hanya sendiri.

dalam tercari-cari akhirnya aku mengerti,
dalam setiap keperitan yang kutempuhi,

rupa-rupanya tersimpan seribu siratan.

dalam gelita malam,
Kau hadiahkanku cahaya sang kunang-kunang.

dalam kaktus berduri,
Kau berikanku bunga kaktus mekar mewangi.

dalam hodohnya sang beluncas,
Kau hidupkan si rama-rama berwarna emas.

dalam gerunnya guruh bergema,
Kau keluarkan pelangi indah berwarna.

dalam kelamnya lorong hidup ini,
Kau bawa aku mengenal erti sebuah kehidupan,
Kau suntikkan aku ketabahan,
Kau tanam di dadaku kecekalan,

Kau hadiahkan aku sebuah kemenangan
satu kemanisan sebuah kejayaan.


terima kasih Tuhan,
Terima kasih kerana tunjukkan aku JALAN.

betapa aku sedar,
Kau jauhkan mereka dari sisiku,
agar yang ada hanya Kau dan aku.

THANKS me

Dear me,
thanks a lot!
thanks for all the pain you felt,
thanks for all the patient you bare,
thanks for all the time you spent,
thanks for every single effort that you made,
thanks semester 2 2011/2012,
thanks for all the sweet memory we had together,

nah,
the sweetest success you have achieved.
congrats.
i'm proud of yourself even no one ever care!

my way

don't JUDGE my path, if you haven't walked my JOURNEY!

bunga

mungkin ramai yang iri,
namun
sekuntum mawar liar di hutan tebal itu seringkali lebih dilihat cantiknya dan dihargai harumya
berbanding mawar indah di dalam taman meluas..

dan.. itulah hakikat sebenar percaturan ciptaan bernama manusia...

ABC - Advance Building Construction

esok exam ABC, second last paper for this sem,
not as easy as it sounds.

God,
plase, please, please,
Kurniakan aku kefahaman para anbiya',
Kurniakan aku hafazan para Rasul- Mu,
Kurniakan aku ilham para malaikat yang terdekat dengan-Mu,
Kurniakan aku kesihatan yang baik,
Wahai Tuhan yang Maha Pemurah.

ABC,
please be kind!

menghadap post contract

Wahai langit senja oren yang indah cantik
wahai gerimis hujan yang nyaman merintik,
wahai sang mentari yang melarikan terik,
wahai pepohon tinggi yang meliuk lentik,
wahai sang rembulan yang sabar menanti naik,
wahai beburung yang pulang terbang,
si unggas yang menyanyi riang,
 dan,
wahai aku yang masih merenung jauh menembus maya,
berhenti seketika memuji hebatnya Dia,
menghayati senja menutup seribu cerita
membawa sejuta makna
menghentikan sekalian duka derita.




***********working harder for tomorrow Quiz! sangat best =__+

dear you,

people change; so do i.
thanks for being with me, even once.
thanks for loving me, even fake.
thanks for back stabbing me, even just for your sake

Don't be mad because I don't care anymore. 
Be mad because I once did, and you were too blind to see

talking to the Moon, thanks for hearing me when no one do!

"biarlah aku mengecewakan dua hati hari ini, demi menjaga dua hati yang sentiasa menjaga aku sejak kecil, sehingga ke syurga"


.............dan buat kesekian detik akhir, aku berserah pada ketetapan-Nya yang lebih sempurna berbanding perancangan lemah manusia


terima kasih buat segala kenangan yang pernah singgah dalam laman kehidupan manusia ini,
terima kasih pada satu hati yang pernah menjadi embun menyirami hati gersang ini,
terima kasih buat saat indah yang tak mungkin mampu diputar walau sedetik mengisi kekosongan kotak hitam hari ini,
terima kasih pada kata semangat yang tak pernah malap menelusuri detik cemas hari semalam,
terima kasih pada senyuman ikhlas yang pernah menjadi mentari seorang aku pada satu detik lalu,
terima kasih
dan terima kasih sekali lagi.....

sorri freng!

Sorry, I just don’t like those who did not focus in class, then ask for your notes to copy.

o Please, please, please oh dear me. Don’t ever take life just for granted, you will never learn how to appreciate things.

There is no such-called shortcut to succeed.

Train yourself to improve, train your ability, your skill. Never afraid of failure, life is always a learning process. Think of your future, your who-to-be, your parents whose has spent millions on your, pray for you day and night. Think of Him that always there seeing you, monitoring you, near to you.

He never asks you to be the best, He only wants you to do the best, and then He will take care of the rest, insyaAllah.

Give a chance for yourself to success, to feel how sweet the victory is after all the hardship you have faced, the difficulties that you have gone through, the sickness of being push and pull around and at last the triumph is yours. Even you fail, you can be proud of yourself.

At least you rise stronger and wiser.

SOMEDAYsecretcrazylittlelove

I don't know how much longer
That i have to resist everything
I've been hiding all the truth inside my heart
Everytime we meet
everytime you turn to face me
that I pretend to be still
Do you know how much i have to force myself?

Can you hear my heart?
It's telling you loving you?
But i can't open my heart for anyone to know

Can you hear that?
My heart ...
Is always waiting there for you
Can only hope you will know it...someday.

Though I know love you
I hope you feel it too
But deep inside isn't brave enough
Everytime we meet
Everytime you turn to face me
that I pretend to be still
Do you know how much i have to force myself?

Can you hear that?
My heart ...
It's always waiting there for you to open it
Can only hope you will know it...
That I'm the one here to love you
Please I hope you will know...Someday